My tears spill out upon the page as my cry is silently unable to let the pain breathe for fear of dying inside. The hope I had is fading and my feelings become more numb as the night air becomes thicker. Where are you my angel of dreams? Have I lost you along with my hope and innocence? What joy is left when tears are stealing the love I had inside?
"Dont leave me," my body cries as each day it looses all I brought with my youth. I strolled the beach and saw the nievity in the children's eyes. You arent coming back....I have lost you inside me somehow. I tried, oh I tried, to let you in and let all I felt disappear, but it stayed along with my doubt.
I fear the end is near and I cant feel you by my side anymore. What happened to us? Why couldn't I just let you back in? Was it never meant to be and we just became fools of lies and circumstance?
I love you and I care for you but the love I had to make this work has left me, I fear for good. You were the one I loved, the one thing that I tried to believe in. My rock when all seemed to be bashing the waves of the storm against me. My rock is gone. And I was the one who let it go. I am sorry for that. More sorry than anything. You dont understand but you try. When you finally understood it was too late to bring it back, but believe me when I say I tried. I hate to leave you in your solitary confinement but I must be true to myself and what I believe is right. I love you, my darling, but we must part ways. The road is difficult but it must be traveled. Please dont loose who you are and how amazing you are. I will always love you.....